SickSyn

I don’t always get this life. Everything happens for a reason right? I don’t always question those reasons but I’m good at going with the flow. In life people change, things change, I make changes, relationships change…there’s constant change. Of course it’s said that change is good but sometimes it doesn’t feel that way especially when that change is so instant and takes your breath away, makes your head spin and you end up trying to figure out what the fuck just happened.

Recently this year I’ve had some changes take place and I’ve helped to make some of them. I want to say all of them are good because there is no need to see any of them as negative but there is that one change that has taken place that just makes me…it has me feeling like…I’m at the point where I feel lost. I know that this change is something I will get use to in time but right now it has me in a place I emotionally and mentally don’t want or need to be. I drown my sorrows by getting caught up and lost in the work I do and the things I love but once that’s over it’s back to facing reality and dealing with this new change. I have to admit, in a way this new change has had me a bit more focused on different areas of my life but it’s still bothering me and my soul. EGHCK! I hate feeling fine one moment and then uneasy the next or all at the same time.

I guess time will work things out, heal pain, help me push pass it all. Right now I’m enjoying having this cup of coffee by my side and typing this out. I’m sure after this I’ll go back to posting/re-blogging funny pics, cats and nudes of random chicks. Have to have something to help ease my mind I guess.

This is the second time facebook has disabled my account without warning. Eghck! Whatever, they say 3rd times a charm…yeah, we’ll see. After that, FUCK IT!